*** Tellana (stfu@4d0d88ff.bredband.d9a25784.se.hmsk) has left #gglounge4 [Relapse] "It doesn't have to be now. And not here." * Wirrit slowly opens her eyes and looks at Relapse, gauging his expression. Her own is somewhere between anger, wariness, and fear/sorrow - in no particular order. * Relapse stops his emotionless appearance, frowning with concern and moving closer to put an arm around Wirrit. * Wirrit ... sighs and looks down, then. "...maybe. Maybe now. ...but not here." * Wirrit doesn't object to the arm. [Relapse] "Let's get you to your room then." .oO ( Ten obviously has Tellana under control as she hasn't stormed here. Both of them so keen to strike each other. Hmmmmm. ) * Wirrit seems .. edgy for a moment, but nods her OK as the maintenance team arrives (with various quiet grumbles about code pinks and damage). She slightly unsteadily tries to stand, but quickly recovers. * Relapse will continue to hold onto Wirrit for most of the walk, unless she seems to not appreciate it. *** Ryanohki is now known as Ryanohki|CoH * Wirrit appreciates it, and is keeping her weight mostly off the foot with the ring of ceiling around it. She's quiet until they arrive -- and the room hasn't changed since last it was seen. *** Relapse is now known as Lapse|Lunch *** Wirrit is now known as Wirrit|BRB *** Ryanohki|CoH (sandrock_m@a3dd7ff2.ladson01.sc.5aa6454b.net.hmsk) has quit IRC [Quit: That's what I'm talking about when I talk about America.] *** Shadow-Wolf (kclind@89ef5919.tampabay.14056255.com.hmsk) has joined #GGlounge4 *** Mode change [+v Shadow-Wolf] on #GGLounge4 by Wirrit|BRB *** Forsyth (bluemage@a651ebaa.s93.apx3.lnhdc.md.dialup.6ca6e6e8.com.hmsk) has quit IRC [Quit: Trust the ferret. The ferret is wise.] *** Lapse|Lunch is now known as Relapse *** Rohar (Rohar@593b7f21.dialup.c7b28ff4.com.hmsk) has quit IRC [Quit: And I'm off like a prom dress...] *** Wirrit|BRB is now known as Wirrit (( Game on! )) * Relapse leads Wirrit to her bed, best place to sit down next to each other. He keeps silent. *** Drathari^ (someone@c8dc0fc1.laft.107fc437.com.hmsk) has joined #GGLounge4 *** Mode change [+v Drathari^] on #GGLounge4 by Wirrit *** Re (feops@cb2df09d.dynamic.6ca6d637.net.hmsk) has joined #gglounge4 *** Mode change [+o Re] on #GGLounge4 by ChanServ *** Mode change [+v Re] on #GGLounge4 by Lana` * Wirrit makes extra sure that the door is closed, and securely so, before letting herself be taken to a seat. She . . quietly sits there for a short bit before speaking. "Tellana and I have yet t' talk without fighting. ... Not this far, before." * Relapse listens. ".. She pokes too far into things that aren't her business. Believes a bit too much in an ... unforgiving.. code..." * Wirrit seems at a loss for words. [Relapse] "Unforgiving. That would be extremely restrictive, especially here." *** Onibi is now known as Void ".. Probably, yeah." * Wirrit still won't look at him. * Relapse reaches over in a similar manner Wirrit did to him once, attempt to gently use her chin to direct her gaze to his face. *** Rohar (Rohar@cac8d25a.dialup.c7b28ff4.com.hmsk) has joined #GGLounge4 *** Mode change [+v Rohar] on #GGLounge4 by Wirrit * Wirrit resists slightly for a moment, then lets her look be redirected. "...?" * Relapse smiles a little, still looking concerned. "Tell me why it effected you so badly?" "... You, Angel, .. Tim.. ..Vidau, Byron.. .. Until she said that, I .. think you and them were the only who really knew." ".. Ah was tryin' t' help. Give advice when she wanted it. ...and she kept poking, then that ..guess.." * Relapse lets his hand drop lightly, hoping Wirrit won't look away. .oO ( That's who she was talking about. Damn, Tellana. ) [Relapse] "...It hurt. The poking." * Wirrit .. doesn't manage to keep her eyes on his. Though she does glance back up, and has managed to more or less drop the anger at least. Now she's more lost than anything. "..." * Relapse opens his mouth to speak, stops, starts again. "She wouldn't let up, that's why you attacked her?" "..She wouldn't let up, and she accused me of .. ..what.. I did.. ...and ah'm .. doubtful.. that she'd keep it to herself, if she knew it wasn't known." [Relapse] "I'll talk to her about it. Not you. What can I do to help you right now?" * Wirrit is looking down again, eyes .. dampish. "..I..." .oO( Tell me that I'm as better as I thought I was.. ..that it wasn't a.. ..relapse... ...heh.. -- he.. Wouldn't lie to me though.. ...don't think I want to know. )Oo. "...I don't know." * Wirrit manages to look up, with a tiny little ghost of a smile. "...a hug's fairly classic." * Relapse scoots closer with a smile, angling his head so her cheek is in the perfect position to be kissed. "Any and all times you want, hun." [Relapse] .oO ( Now's not a good time to talk about her Redemption efforts... after this has cooled somewhat. ) * Wirrit hugs Relapse close, and leans into him. "..thanks." * Relapse kisses Wirrit's head a few times during the hug, before just squeeze-holding her as close as she likes. * Wirrit is ... quiet. Her eyes remain damp, though the kisses seem to comfort her some. [Relapse] "...It was an alright punch though, from what I could see of your stance." * Wirrit just rubs her cheek into him in response. * Wirrit doesn't seem so comforted by throwing good punches when angry. * Relapse gets a hint to just not talk and lapses into silence. Silence he's good at. He gently rubs Wirrit's back with one hand, anywhere that feels tense gets a bit more rubbing attention. * Wirrit , after a while of this, seems to be mostly calmed down. Maybe as long as half an hour of just silence, but... (quietly) "..thank you." [Relapse] (also quietly) "Not a problem." * Relapse gives Wirrit's head a final kiss and leans back. * Wirrit tilts her head as he leans back, to lightly kiss his cheek. "...I... feel much b-- .. ..less... ... you know." * Relapse nods after the kiss. "Good." *** Void is now known as Void|Brb [Relapse] .oO ( Bring Redemption up now? ) * Wirrit holds quietly for a short while longer. Then come more whispers. "...did I ever tell you about my family?" [Relapse] "....some." [Relapse] "I know of your mother." "She.. .. was worse than ah am... ...and.. her mother was worse than that... ..and.. ...Angel's .. ." [Relapse] "Isn't who you are now. By chance and choice." "..Angel's.. ..away right now.. ..you saw why she left. ..I... . I thought I was better." * Relapse looks a little confused at that statement. * Wirrit looks down at her hands again. "...I.. ... It's ... ..a family thing.. ..I think.." "..Most of us aren't.. .. .normal. .. Most aren't stable." "..Angel and her sisters are the first not to.. .." * Relapse keeps an unhelpful comment to himself. Continues to just listen. "...T' put it bluntly, my entire family is nuts. ..bad tempers.. ... I .. just thought mine was gone." [Relapse] "An unpleasant discovery then." * Wirrit ..nods. [Relapse] "Thought of talking to someone in medical about it? I haven't seen you quite like that before." * Wirrit almost flinches at the notion. "...no. I .. hadn't." [Relapse] "But it doesn't seem a good idea. Talking to me then." .oO ( No shattering... ) ".. I haven't been that way, in- " .oO( ..a lot less than I want to pretend. >< ) * Wirrit relaxes some at the not-pressing-it. "..I'll.. have to keep more of an eye on it. .." *** Zinic (zinic@7f14bfbd.dsl.snantx.f55b92fc.net.hmsk) has quit IRC [Quit: Hmmm...Lakers suck! *Sleep*] [Relapse] .oO ( More of Wirrit I didn't know before... ) [Relapse] "Yes." ".. if.. .. It.. .. It all seems reasonable, when.. I think about it a certain way.." *pauses to look up* "..so I can't tell so well when I'm doing that. .. if.. I do.. Tell me?" * Relapse nods quietly. "When thought patterns go a certain way, many things can seem reasonable..." * Wirrit looks at his face, gauging something. * Relapse could have been reaching for a certain memory with that comment, he is interested in seeing how Wirrit will respond. Having her look at him like that could count as the response. * Wirrit seems to deflate slightly, throat tightening -- she manages to keep herself looking at his eyes this time, though. "...yeah.." * Relapse nods again, and brushes her left bang slightly and smiling while keeping the eye contact. "My girlfriend isn't perfect. Who knew. At least I don't have to aim for the impossible to be worthy of her." *** Void|Brb is now known as Void|Company *** Ryanohki (sandrock_m@a3dd7ff2.ladson01.sc.5aa6454b.net.hmsk) has joined #gglounge4 *** Mode change [+v Ryanohki] on #GGLounge4 by Lana` *** Shadow-Wolf is now known as Wolf|Horse * Wirrit somehow manages to smile and wince at once. ".I.. I guess so." [Relapse] "...I've been holding off talking about... progress in Redemption or anything for a while. It hasn't seemed appropriate given where we are now, but if you ever want to talk about it, please..." * Wirrit .. nods slightly. "I.. I will." *** ToxicFrog (ToxicFrog@f668c900.customer.f46397e0.ca.hmsk) has quit IRC [Quit: Video card reconfigured. AGP enabled. Finally. *stabbity* Rebooting.] * Relapse brings his hand back to lean on the bed, pondering Wirrit's reactions and how to proceed. ".. I..." *looks down at her hands again, and seems to think about something far too hard* * Relapse waits a little while. "...just say it." * Wirrit .. does so. "I've been thinking... ..like tonight... at least twice before. At the outpost. ...before we were really together. Never enough to do anything -- until I tried to hit her... I didn't recognize it as a problem until now. ... Do you really think medbay could help?" *looks up -- face a mix of .. fear, hurt, and worry that he's right* * Relapse shrugs. "It's possible, sure. And it doesn't have to be an... injested solution. Like how I helped you, initially. You yourself spoke about 'a certain way of thinking'." *** Wolf|Horse (kclind@89ef5919.tampabay.14056255.com.hmsk) has quit IRC [Quit: Wolf|Horse] *** Ryanohki (sandrock_m@a3dd7ff2.ladson01.sc.5aa6454b.net.hmsk) has quit IRC [Quit: That's what I'm talking about when I talk about America.] * Wirrit sighs and rests her face in her hands. "... Telling anyone but you just seems.. .. risky.." *** ToxicFrog (ToxicFrog@f668c900.customer.f46397e0.ca.hmsk) has joined #gglounge4 *** Mode change [+v ToxicFrog] on #GGLounge4 by Wirrit *** Writer (daggerpin@6ca5f03f.6ca5ecdc.62.92.imsk) has joined #GGLounge4 *** Mode change [+v Writer] on #GGLounge4 by Wirrit [Relapse] "So tell them only what you feel safe in telling. If they don't say that straight off, they've no right to be trusted or told." *** Byron (Lofar50@f88ecc13.phlapafg.dynamic.ddbb0af8.net.hmsk) has joined #gglounge4 *** Mode change [+o Byron] on #GGLounge4 by ChanServ *** Mode change [+v Byron] on #GGLounge4 by Wirrit "...how could I tell them anything relevant that isn't. ..incriminating. ...I wouldn't feel safe saying much of anything." .oO( ...incriminating. Did I just say that? >.< ) [Relapse] "There's the whole doctor patient privalege.. but you're right to be cautious. Even if most of the doctors here would be used to people who do similar things without anywhere near the after-thought." [Relapse] "Talk about how you feel, how you think. Maybe say just talking to me has made you ponder about how you consider things, not what you've done; remember the doctors aren't there to judge." .oO ( Unlike some people. ) *** Rohar (Rohar@cac8d25a.dialup.c7b28ff4.com.hmsk) has quit IRC [Quit: Muahahahaha die Tux, die!] * Wirrit .. nods faintly. "..but do they have to report anything questionable they hear.." "..but... aye." [Relapse] "If it helps, I'll come with you." .oO ( I could suggest off-system psychiatrists... but that would be further shielding her, which looks to be hurting her even if she doesn't realise... ) "..that.. .. I thin it would.. ..if.. . I'm not sure if you'd like all you heard.." [Relapse] "Because hiding it from me to be discovered later, perhaps, is a good idea." * Wirrit winces. "..I.. wouldn't hide.. ..." * Wirrit 's face falls, and she looks down. "..not on purpose.." .oO( ..but.. that's essentially what I just said. ) * Relapse sits there, not commenting. "..I'm sorry.." *** Ryanohki (sandrock_m@a3dd7ff2.ladson01.sc.5aa6454b.net.hmsk) has joined #gglounge4 *** Mode change [+v Ryanohki] on #GGLounge4 by Wirrit *** Killfrenzy is now known as KF|Zzz .oO( ..drive him away by not taking him along. Or possibly have him not like who he sees. ...No. He.. surprised me before.. ) "...there's such a thing as too much too fast. ..that.. .. that was my worry." "..that you might not have time to adjust to anything you hear. ..if you wanted to adjust. ... I don't know." * Relapse nods. [Relapse] .oO ( I think she trusts me... given what we've spoken of before... and the vacation... what could she have which is worse than that? ) * Wirrit rubs her eyes and sighs. *** Writer (daggerpin@6ca5f03f.6ca5ecdc.62.92.imsk) has quit IRC [Quit: *Ze-zam!*] * Relapse takes a breath, and then speaks. "I can't guarantee anything. I can say you know how I feel by now and... maybe a bit of faith is required but holding it back is hurting you. I don't like seeing that." "...so what exactly would you have me do?" [Relapse] "What you feel you should. I'd like to see you find a way to help you; either my suggestion of the doctor or other ways you know of. Or, if you feel you have to keep it to yourself, keep it to yourself. No pushing me away, even if you feel you should, though." *** Tarlin (tarlin1@5de5c5d2.bak.14056255.com.hmsk) has quit IRC [Quit: *Poof* Dragon boy is outta here] "I--" .oO(-wouldn't-- ... ..... -_- )Oo. "-- won't. I... .. I love you, even if I'm a little messed up about it sometimes." *** Ryanohki (sandrock_m@a3dd7ff2.ladson01.sc.5aa6454b.net.hmsk) has quit IRC [Quit: That's what I'm talking about when I talk about America.] * Wirrit 's eyes are damp again. * Relapse smiles, face looking still concerned, and moves in for another kiss-accompanied hug. * Wirrit cries into his shoulder. * Relapse holds Wirrit as close as possible without involving bruising. * Wirrit eventually quiets a bit, but doesn't speak more. * Relapse doesn't move, save for a soft petting. * Wirrit eventually falls asleep like this -- still wearing her backpack, boots, section of ceiling, and etc. Her ears remain low, but relax slightly. *** Drathari|CoH (someone@c8dc0fc1.laft.107fc437.com.hmsk) has joined #GGLounge4 *** Mode change [+v Drathari|CoH] on #GGLounge4 by Wirrit * Relapse sits there for a while before he eventually realises she's been very quiet for a while and gently moves back... stopping on seeing Wirrit's sleeping. He just looks at her face for a while, before cortorting himself to get out from supporting her as gently as he can. * Relapse won't try to take her backpack off, but will try to take off her boots and ceiling once she's laying on her side, if he manages that. * Wirrit is sleeping very, very lightly -- but, Relapse is a ninja. Getting her laying down is easy. She almost wakes up twice when trying the boot, but it's easy enough -- boot, singular, though. The ceiling-laden one doesn't want to come off. *** Drathari^ (someone@c8dc0fc1.laft.107fc437.com.hmsk) has quit IRC [Ping timeout] * Relapse expected as much, small blade appearing in his hand again. Very, very carefully the ceiling is given a gentle seeing to. * It seems to be projecting into the side of the material itself -- would have to cut the boot to get it off. * Relapse looks at the boot... looks at Wirrit... looks at the boot. Deciding it's really not his to mess with he'll try and cut the ceiling such that it's close to the boot as possible. So there'll be a small ring of ceiling around the boot. That can lead to further trimming. *** Feina is now known as Feina|Foxden * Wirrit 's boot is soon as normal, except for the little line of ceiling around the ankle. During the trimming, she remains essentially asleep. * Relapse moves the bits of ceilings away, the kunai disappearing somewhere along the way. *** Denzine (Something@67f465df.pbi.828b38f5.net.hmsk) has quit IRC [Quit: ** The aura of innuendo fades **] * Wirrit sleeps quietly, except for periodic small random sleep-movements. *** Flats|GSS_Sec (bigbosso@6b16a29f.dip.2db3ec63.net.hmsk) has joined #gglounge4 *** Mode change [+o Flats|GSS_Sec] on #GGLounge4 by ChanServ *** Mode change [+v Flats|GSS_Sec] on #GGLounge4 by Wirrit *** Mode change [+o Flats|GSS_Sec] on #GGLounge4 by ChanServ * Relapse watches Wirrit for a little while before looking around the room. Two pillows are snagged from Wirrit's bed, one is prompted near enough to Wirrit's head for her to hopefully roll into it. Relapse takes the other to take up sleeping position in an available corner of the room. * Actually, considering Angel used to be Wirrit's roomie (but moved out), and Wirrit never throws anything away... there's a spare bed. :) * Which I probably should have mentioned before. -_-; * Relapse doesn't aim for the other bed, as he knows who used to sleep there. The corner is fine for him.